Leveling Out

Lithium. Not the Nirvana song but the chemical mood stabilizer used to treat bipolar disorder. And while I write the beginning of this it is 11:50PM and I am blasting Lithium by Nirvana quite loudly as I contemplate taking my nightly dose of Lithium.

After not seeing my psychiatrist and not taking medication for a while I decided to use the insurance I have and get into the office to to off on my much needed medications. It took a lot o courage and anxiety for me to contact my doctor after almost a year to to confess to him that my mental health was in the shitter and that I felt like I had let myself and…